I'm Exhausted

It is now 12:09 am eastern daylight savings time. I can't fucking sleep.

It was about 9:45 when got into bed. I was exhausted then as I am now, but every time I close my eyes nothing happens. The sleep aid it's helping.

Every once in a while I have this problem. It's usually happens when I can't make a decision.

I have been trying to decided if I should go back to school now or if I should wait 'till next fall. If I wait 'till next fall I can save some more money and possibly buy a condo. If I don't wait I will be that much closer to finishing school, which is something that I should have done a long time ago. If I go to school now will I still be able to afford to move in April. If I move in April will I be able to afford a place that I don't hate. Will that place be in the city or will I stay in the burbs. Is this a date I am going on Saturday or is he just looking for friends. I really need to get on an exercise program. What am I going to do about my job. I don't want to have to go through looking again, it's so difficult. What if I start school just to quit again. Holy crap I am going to be 35 soon. If I don't find a boyfriend soon I will have to buy a Sebring convertible and move to Palm Springs where old fags go to die. If I don't loose some weight I will never be in a relationship. I am in so much debt on one will ever love me. I need to stop thinking about the 25 year old an move on. He did say he loved me fucking him. What does that mean? And hello 35 do you know what that is in gay years.

Oh my god I'm exhausted and naked.