Peggy

My aunt is in hospice loosing an almost ten year battle with cancer. She has fought a brave and courageous fight that makes me believe she is the strongest person I’ve ever known. Cancer is bitch and what it does to its victims is horrific. She has been reduced to a shell of her former brassy loudmouth self. The woman who used to drink Miller Lite from a can and yell at Patriots on Sunday afternoon now can barely lift her own head to drink from a cup of ice water.

If the cancer weren’t enough for her to deal with she has had to keep working up until the time she was to weak to stand for health insurance. She went through rounds of Chemotherapy and radiation all while working 40 hours a week as a nurse in a nursing home because if she didn’t she couldn’t afford to pay her rent.

What kind of society lets this happen to its own hard working citizens?

Making Up

The past few months have been defend by the arguments I’ve had with family and friends. I am ruled but the god of war in both my son and moon, it’s not that put a lot of stock into astrology but I just saying. Fighting with people isn’t something that I am very proud to say that I have been doing, especially when the arguments have been over things that seem very silly in retrospect.

In March I had a blow out with my friend M, because I called her a hypochondriac. To my mind this wasn’t a big deal. I couldn’t have been more wrong. The argument changed from me saying something that hurt her feelings to me feeling like I am constantly giving her leeway on things that she never affords me. I said what I thought. She thought differently and we ended up not speaking for 7 months.

As they say it’s all water under the bridge now. The hard part for me and what I am trying to learn is how do I not keep creating these types of situations while having my feelings validated. Who do I not let things reach a nuclear level with out being feeling like I was the only one to compromise and give to only get nothing in return?

Regardless of the answer to the question I am very happy to be friends with M again. It’s made my work days a much happier.

The Blog Thing

This blog has been gnawing at me for the past few months. I am not sure what to do with it. There have been things that have been happened in the past few months that have been worth writing about but I just have been lazy and not wanting to do it. Now I think I am ready to give it another go.